miserably loving you

I can't control it, I can't change it. And that just makes it worse. I don't want to love you, or maybe I do; frankly, I have no idea. I'm confused, and maybe that's what love is. Or maybe not. Maybe I'll never know. I like this way; the way we are now. But my feelings won't let that be enough for me. Will I just keep wanting more? I don't want to, but I just can't control it! It tears me apart to feel this way..whatever this way is.. What will I do about it? Probably nothing. I don't want to scare you away with these feelings, I don't think that you're not one for feeling this way. Oh well, I like the way we are now. Nothing should have to change, right? I can't control it and I can't change it. And that just makes it worse, but I like this pain. I'll endure it and keep it close. Because it almost feels like you.